insanelyJENN says

it was March 3rd and now it's May 28th

2011-05-28T22:04:00.002+08:00

first off today is my sis birthday! and i have been working for more than 3 months! life's been good! and i have 3 colors on my hair! green-ish blonde..left over red on fringe and brown on lower part of hair. BTW am tired as hells missing my boy o and i chopped off my hair. BED! good nights!

MONDAY

2011-03-03T21:57:00.001+08:00

gonna start work on monday...scared that i may screw up or what happen last time would repeat itself, but i gotta learn from mistakes, stop being afraid and hold my head up high! God i know you're watching over me! i will be brave! =)

2011-02-27T22:24:00.002+08:00

my bestie Christine sent this link to me which explains the ocult uses in the movie Black Swan. it's very interesting and weather you're a fan of the movie or not i do encourage you to take some time to read this, you never know maybe if you didn't like the movie before because you didn't quite get it; after reading this you might. (;

i'm bad with titles

2011-02-24T19:34:00.002+08:00

i've been going through a really hard time...it's been quite awhile now...lots of bitter sweet moments but that's life now isn't it? when you want sweet apples life gives you bitter and sour lemons! so what do you do then? well..you can either get back up on your feet and tell life to shove it! cause even though things can get ugly and unfair it still has it's wonderful moments and your gonna fight for those moments. or you can roll over and make yourself comfortable as you lay there on the ground, never getting up. which will you choose? well i be damn if things were that black and white! doesn't matter who you are rich, poor, fat, skinny, ugly, pretty, nice, mean; i for can be quite the bitch...things won't magically become better just cause you feel that you need to be cut some slack given you've been having a hard time. so you just got fired from your job and things couldn't get much worst- and then who knows your boyfriend breaks up with you! things happen...shit happens..sometimes it's not your fault and sometimes it can't be avoided but you just got to roll with the punches. but let's be honest...if things like these don't happen how do we become stronger? how do we know that we are actually strong enough to face it? how do we know who are true friends are? how do we know that we can always count on family? how do we know that God is always with us...we may not feel that way sometimes but he is. but i'm not here to preach about my beliefs...i actually am as i said when i begin; been going through a hard time..and writing always makes me feel better...so yea..this is therapeutic to me. i don't know if there's anyone reading what i post, but if you are thank you.

2011-02-22T16:34:00.002+08:00

sometimes you need to have a good fall to know how to get back up on your own two feet.

sometimes you need to get lost to be able to find your way back.

sometimes you need to be overcome with fear to be able to over come it.

sometimes we need to make the biggest mistakes of our life to know never to repeat the same ones again.

sometimes we need to fall madly in love just to get our heart torn out; just so we know that love hurts sometimes. and then we realize we are able to fall back in love again.

sometimes we need to bleed to know we're only human.

life sucks, but that is life. things happen all the time that upsets us, people can hurt us. but the only one person that can hurt us the most is none other than ourselves.

life will always be unfair, but only you can allow things to bring you down.

so put your head up and that remember every new day is a blessing and everyday is a NEW day to be strong and to never let anyone tell you you're not good enough.

cause you are not perfect, which is exactly what makes you perfect.

its more frustrating than ever because there is nothing i can do about it GAAAAAH!

2011-02-10T20:27:00.002+08:00

this is so stupid so so SO fucking stupid! gosh! illegal for them to celebrate valentines day?! where's the love in that?! it's freaking valentines day! a day that the whole world celebrates of love! for family, friends! special someone! so why on earth are you making it illegal? i don't care what stupid ridiculous reasons you can think of or pin it on that god you worship was a man and died like centuries ago that's why your making it illegal for people of YOUR race people who aren't even YOUR race but stuck in YOUR religion due to the stupid law! so mad! so annoyed! can't stand the heat! i think i can hear my headache. shit.

valentines is just a few days away

2011-02-09T23:14:00.002+08:00

i'm not stressing- now- am i? to go out or stay in chill with junk food and movies or...face the crowd, the traffic and taste good food with valentines special offers for couples. i am not stressing! am not! hmm.. but i do know i'm hungry, or is that just the cramps? but if i don't go out will i be missing out on our opportunity to having our first couples experience on valentines day? we'll figure this out...right?

Domokun Franzie! (we were stalking midvalley the gardens and megamall)

2011-02-09T01:19:00.004+08:00

that's all for tonight it's 1.25am. i think i'm suffering from slight insomnia. Good night!

from the both of us! OK just me...my guy fell asleep around 12.27am hahas.

xo!

just random things coming out all over my head

2011-02-07T13:05:00.002+08:00

every time i want to blog, something always gets in the way... like my bestie whose in aussy for 3 weeks is online msn(ing) me and carrie underwood is on the episode of how i met your mother that i am watching now. gosh i never realize how adorable tea cup pigs are until watching it on how i met your mother. heat is killing me. hate the heat..hateeeeeeeeeee! omg i miss chocolate cake. moist, fudge, CHOCOLATE cake! o and valentines day is coming! where i am gonna get flowers and chocolates from a heart shape box and popping the champaign and making out with my boyfie and then going for a romantic candle light dinner. BLAAAAH! i actually do not like going out on valentines day! cause like it's a day where MOST couples find that it's acceptable to get all PDA in public. get a room people! and it's crowded! hmm...maybe i should go out on vday, i get to dress up or dress down or just dress the way i always do and just go out with my guy! or not...hmm..who knows.. and of course there is the whole bros before hoes thing that a friend of mine is facing. and his sis is pissed to the max. and i have to pretend that i don't know what was going on, when it's HARD! cause i do know what happen and it's not pretty and i have to pretend i dont know whats happening cause the people who started it wont grow a pair and just come out of the closet! like come on! their scared if they do it would be o so scandalous? well news flash plenty of people have more scandalous truth than their current situation i know i have. i practically live double lives and i space out more than usual due to the stress of it!

i should start typing it paragraph it's longer and also easier to read. damn bestie's offline already. wonder if it is even safe to type out some stuff here. grrr! ugh! this sucks. and i really wanna go out with my boyfie! but well mom suddenly tells me that she's cooking me this 2 hour long of slow boiling of this gastric medicine. now i have junk food craving GAAAH! wonder how many bags of those double decker cheese rings dad bought. and i am eating it now! o yea! i am happy. guess i should stop with my random blogging. it's getting boring. i'm boring. but the plan now is after i finish my awful herb meds i shall bail from home till i am back in time for dinner!

xo!

Reality is a bitch! Off with her head!

2011-02-05T20:48:00.002+08:00

how can i be completely honest in a blog that's public? but i'll try cause i just need to let it out and prob is i can't even tell it to my bestfriends or the one person that means the world to me now. thing is things aren't that simple. it feels kinda worst than the classic William Shakespears 'Romeo and Juliet'. OK i never read the book but i've seen enough of the movie..well, i was given the book- well photo-stated. but well there is family involve then there is the law. yeah...and then there is people that know this will end tragically and i should get out before i am in too deep, well i already am. and i never saw it coming. everyone says there's a solution to everything; maybe there is maybe there isn't...but what i do right now that it's too soon to tell. God knows what will happen in a matter of months, weeks, days or even hours- and if i'm lucky years. thing is i'll never know, you'll never know. but it's hard, and it's not going to get any easier; but i'm holding on.

Avril Lavigne - What The Hell Official Video

2011-01-24T14:05:00.001+08:00

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his Class on the problem Science has with God. He asked one of his new Christian students to stand.

2011-01-24T13:27:00.002+08:00

Before you read the post that the title is referring to, well i have a tumblr and am following Hayley Williams from Paramore's tumblr and she actually reblogged this. And after reading it, it really hit me hard and believe it or not it is actually a true story and you will never guess who the student was.

Professor: You are a Christian, aren’t you, son?
Student: Yes, sir.
Professor: So, you believe in God?
Student: Absolutely, sir.
Professor: Is God good?
Student: Sure.
Professor: My brother died of cancer, even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn’t. How is God good, then? Hmm?
(Student was silent)
Professor: You can’t answer, can you? Let’s start again, young fella. Is God good?
Student: Yes.
Professor: Is Satan good?
Student: No.
Professor: Where does Satan come from?
Student: From.. God.
Professor: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student: Yes.
Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it? And God did make everything. Correct?
Student: Yes.
Professor: So who created evil?
(Student didn’t answer)
Professor: Is there sickness? Immortality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?
Student: Yes, sir.
Professor: So, who created them?
(Student had no answer)
Professor: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son.. have you ever seen God?
Student: No, sir.
Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your God.
Student: No, sir.
Professor: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God, for that matter?
Student: No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.
Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student: Yes.
Professor: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, Science says your God doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student: Nothing. I only have my Faith.
Professor: Yes, Faith. And that is the problem Science has.
Student: Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?
Professor: Yes.
Student: And is there such a thing as Cold?
Professor: Yes.
Student: No, sir, there isn’t.
(The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events)
Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of Heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There was a pon-drop silence in the Lecture Theatre)
Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?
Student: You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light… But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and it’s called Darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it is, You would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?
Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student: Sir, my point is, your Philosophical Premise is flawed.
Professor: Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student: Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
Professor: If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes of course, I do.
Student: Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going)
Student: Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?
(The class was in uproar)
Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain?
(The class broke out into laughter)
Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? .. No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable and Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures?
(The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable)
Professor: I guess you’ll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student: That is it, sir.. exactly! The link between man and God is Faith. That is all that keeps things alive and moving!
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That student was Albert Einstein.
Brilliant.
Beautifully done.
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wow, this was really albert einstein? had no idea he if believed in anything at all. when stories become about real people don't they hit so much harder?

P!nk - Fucking Perfect

2011-01-22T13:23:00.002+08:00

this song has such a strong message, that life isn't perfect we're not perfect, so stop trying or expecting people to be. and it is also against suicide! this video, the song really speaks to me and it is something i really want to share to others as well!

meet my boyfriend

2011-01-21T14:45:00.002+08:00

B.O.Y

2011-01-20T19:17:00.003+08:00

Beware Of You

2011-01-18T22:47:00.001+08:00

2011-01-13T12:16:00.002+08:00

2011-01-13T12:10:00.002+08:00

it's not even a fight or an argument. it's just us having disagreements and trying to cope with each other's schedule and me having to keep all this secrets.

dying is easy; living is hard.

2011-01-10T12:04:00.002+08:00

i always say that line or sometimes i change the 'living is hard' to 'living is hell'. and i still haven't changed my mind on it. cause honestly everyone struggles and for some unfortunate people like us we struggle a lot. it's complicated. and i don't expect and anyone to understand or try to.

everyone seems to be starting college a new chapter of their life, a life that isn't for me. sure i will miss out on college life but then again it really isn't for me.

last night i had one of my weird dreams. i was in a classroom and we had art class and we were doing this underwater theme. and then i had to go to the bathroom only to find it has become this storeroom with underwater artifacts, like mermaid stuff and statues and there was this cage with something inside and i couldn't see well as if i was going blind and then rats started spilling out. and then i felt like there was something else in there with me..like this ghostly feeling. then i went back to class and still feeling like i need to go and then a girl came to me and told me there's another bathroom at school grounds that is nice and clean but she din tell me about the lil downside to it. so she takes me there and when we get there the bathrooms are like these lil wooden rooms; seriously! the weirdest thing is every time i enter the bathrooms i can't see clearly like someone did something to my contacts to make me see things in spots! then this ghost keeps bugging the hell out of me while i was trying to pee! gosh..can't a girl pee in peace? then i woke up to my guys arms and a sweet kiss. then i ACTUALLY woke up for real to the bright sun shinning through my window!

when it all comes down to it, i am a lil unstable

2011-01-08T11:00:00.002+08:00

no i am not confirming everyones suspicion that i might be a lil ku ku in the head. but it's been a tough few month, tougher than usual actually.there's the do i want to work this line that i am terrified of and have no confidence in or do i want to venture into something that is also just as frightening maybe more than the other but is something that i know i can be passionate about.

so i was at my boyfie's place and we were having fun, then suddenly something inside of me snapped. i didn't just cried, i sobbed uncontrollably. i must have been that way for awhile cause when i finally stopped my eyes were so swollen i ended falling asleep at his place.

It's been awhile

2011-01-07T11:12:00.003+08:00

it's been awhile since i blogged, right now i pretty much just reblog post and sometimes post pics on tumblr.

well a lot has happened since i last blogged. first of all it's 2011! and i have a guy who is my best friend and i'm happy. went to concerts, met new people and didn't managed to loose any! and i am stressing about other things as well... to study or to work? but here's the thing i'm not the one to make the final decision they are. well i don't have much to say, so i guess that's all for now.

kisses. xo

2010-08-03T12:42:00.001+08:00

well it's been a lil over a month since i started working. things have been difficult, i'm not catching up fast enough but that's my problem anyway. cause mom's been gone for more than a month and well...during my off days there's a lot of chores to be done, and i don't really have enough sleep. well i don't really have much to say~ but i do know i've been getting pretty sick, guess that's also because i went to MTV WORLD STAGE 2010 and saw TOKIO HOTEL LIVE AGAIN and gosh! were they amazing! they even brought some of the props from their Europe tour! and i cannot wait to get my hands on their HUMANOID CITY LIVE DVD! Jo actually painted our tops Humanoid specially for this concert!

and boy did i scream my lungs out during all the songs that were performed, and whenever necessary and unnecessary! i couldn't help myself! was extremely stoked when the twins came out with their piano(Tom playing; Bill singing) with the song 'Zoom Into Me'. i know how meaningful the song is to them! and i swore i saw Bill wiped a tear from his eye! the way he looked out to us was just- words can't describe it. but i know we definitely touched them! and i hope they come back again! i wanna meet them! i gotta!
well...now it's time to get back to living my life...work. bah...but it's my off day gonna chill and continue blasting Tokio Hotel songs. Currently blasting 'Screaming'.

here's a really awesome shot i managed to take of Bill Kaulitz on his bike and Gustav on the drums during the performance of the song ' Dogs Unleash'.

inking it on feels that much more personal!

2010-06-24T11:20:00.004+08:00

I know it's been awhile! A lot has happen, and honestly I can't believe I'm blogging again. Well if this post even considers as me coming back!

Life has had it's ups and downs but mostly downs- then again; that is life after all! Life ain't no bed of roses! Thorns maybe but def not roses. About mid last month we found out my aunt(dad's oldest sister) has colon cancer. Yes, another family member with cancer. It's nothing new but very scary and about that time my cousin (dad's second sisters daughter(her mother died of cancer too)) found a lump at her breast and went for surgery. Well it's not just my dad's side with the history of cancer but my mom's side as well. And somehow strangely out of all of this I somehow have this crazy urge to want to get a yellow ribbon tattoo BADLY! It just somehow feels like the right thing to do.

Bur anyway, I got a job! Starting next month! Let the stress BEGIN! And as always once we're home the nags are doubled up and the atmosphere is pretty much always pretty foul. But that's what happens when you spend too much time with each other? I know everyone sees me as this really negative person, which I suppose I probably am. But hey at least I know how to have fun sometimes. And right now I'm having a conversation with a classmate back in high school and he is asking me pretty stupid questions and I'm not feeling too good. Soooo...

Anyway that's all for now. for whoever that may even read my blog.

Oh..and my aunt passed away. We were at church camp which was a four days three nights thing and on the third day during a break our pastor announce that me and my family were going back to see my aunt who is very sick. Shocker for me cause I din know about it till it was announce that we were leaving for a 6 hour drive to Kedah! We got there in time..she passed away in the middle of the night. She looked so beautiful and so at peace, I just couldn't find any sadness in it.

Miss you Aunt Janet, may you watch over me and my family from heaven.

now now why the silence?

2010-05-09T19:13:00.002+08:00

here's a lil update on my boring life. i went to Tokio Hotel concert fell more in love with them got even more sick(had high fever middle of the night during the day of concert.) 20% more unwell right now..(concert was on may1st.) currently working at The Wedding Boutique in The Curve. and alone. just answered the phone BTW. used to it, once work as a receptionist in church..i love how i answer the phone haha! well it's only a weekend job and the food here are so expensive! Grr! but that's all i'm spending money on i get a ride through and from work how awesome is that?!!! thank god! well working life is tiring and boring...but it's only on the weekends, for now. got plans for tomorrow...sorta kinda. WANNA BEDENG! but alone in shop and won't have time for it when everyone gets back from the FASHION SHOW downstairs...yeap...we're ad the gowns here, gorgeous. back killing me. movie tomorrow? i hope?

BE WARNED!

2010-04-17T21:45:00.002+08:00

first off the weather hasn't improve...yea sure it rained it was a lil cold for awhile but not anymore! gosh global warming has seriously taken it's tow! humans! stop burning and chopping down trees! unless you want to get burn and chop!

AND DON'T EVER OPEN AND EAT MY CHOCOLATE WITHOUT PERMISSION!! ESPECIALLY IF IT'S BLACK!!!!!

blah blah blaaah!

2010-04-16T15:08:00.002+08:00

guess what? i'm blogging again! cause i am super bored and super free while everyone else is busy and this weather is a major mood killer! am now waiting for my results to come out so i can actually find a job. kinda not in the mood for anything due to the weather and to sleep all day would plain be depressing. i prefer to sleep at night, that's when i get all my weird dreams! yesterday night i dream i got turned into a vampire, and last night i dream about some fight sequence and there were super powers involve! ca-raaay-zy!!! and now i am waiting for my results to come out so i can figure out what i wanna do, cause i do NOT want to be a beautician! and now i'm sure your wondering why i even studied the line i did if i don't want to be a beautician; well...it's complicated. and let's just leave it at that. well good news for me is i can paint my nails as colorful as i want before i start work? and oya i am going to Tokio Hotel CONCERT!!! i'm sure a lot of people are going...and it's SO GOING TO BE ANOTHER AAR LIKE CONCERT! sorry for the caps. since TM and every1connects are giving the tickets away like hot cakes! but am so hoping to get my hands on some M&G passes! w00t!!!! it's all happening in 2 weeks time man! stoked much!! and am planning to highlight my hair before the concert! roars!!!

p.s getting my hairspray and eyeliner on stand by for the 1st of may to see TOKIO HOTEL!
p.s.s sorry for all the caps. that's what happen when jenn gets over excited tsk!

here's something to make up for the lack of updates

2010-04-06T19:26:00.001+08:00

behold~ miss hayley williams from paramore! enjoy~ =D

XO
J

i promise you this! i hope...

2010-03-13T22:53:00.002+08:00

i will post about my trip to Singapore to catch Paramore live in concert! just haven't had the time yet. till then here's pics from the concert and my trip there...sorry there isn't much during the concert, was having too good a time taking it all in!

2010-03-12T22:27:00.002+08:00

what do you blog about when you are falling really sick and going to have to take a trial exam for a major exam next month, which the trail is next week- get what i mean? exactly. you have NOTHING to blog about. gosh..i am so sick right now i can't stay awake to find some info for some stuff related to school. ugh.

Officially a year!

2010-03-01T21:12:00.002+08:00

Happy 25th Birthday Bryan Donahue

2010-02-25T18:00:00.007+08:00

Today is your birthday, so Happy Birthday Bryan Francis Donahue! And hope to see you back in Malaysia again soon!
XOXO
J

What really happen to MARTIN JOHNSON

2010-02-23T09:16:00.004+08:00

Well I found out what really happen from a witness at the concert...but it doesn't change the fact that the security guards were at fault. And I know a lot of people still think that the picture that Martin posted was fake. Well it's not, and that's that; so believe it if you will and not if you won't but here's what happen straight up from an eye witness. Taken from http://kiirzten.tumblr.com/

arockettothemaine:

livinginafairytale-:

boyslikegirlssecrets:

kiirzten:

to Tamara, Caroline, Becky and that other dude: we should ask money for the real story HAHA.. omg.. i love the rumours.. if only martin did ask us to go on the bus..i would have done it HAHA.. no wait.. WE actually asked if he could drop us off.. but we asked collin the awesome busdriver. he didn’t :( sad

anyway, here’s the story:

I went to the blg show in Glasgow last night, had a m&g with the guys and they were really cool, really nice. got pictures, autographs, talked to them etc.
the show was really cool too! though martin had some problems with his astma (or how you spell that :’D) so his voice wasn’t perfect, but he didn’t want to let us down. I had a blast. Loved the show!

so after the show, me, tamara and caroline waited at the tourbus, talking to the driver who is a great guy <3>
fuck off with the rumours!!

omg.

*thanks for telling the truth…:)

Boys Like Girls frontman Martin Johnson gets beaten up!

2010-02-20T12:25:00.009+08:00

I woke up this morning to THESE tweets! NOTE: Read from below to top for the twitter pic...and if you're smart click on the screen shot below for a better view.

photos were posted by Martin himself.
Seriously! How the hell could anyone do something like this! FYI IT IS HIS BLOOD! Poor Martin =(

While fans were going nuts about what really happen, some even bought into the fact that Bryan Donahue actually was serious that he beat Martin up when Paul DiGiovanni and John Keefe played along.

But one of a fellow Boys Like Girls fan managed to find this! The story of what really happen, and Martin later on tweets to clear things up to fans.

Blog post from http://sinistersmile.tumblr.com/

Friday 29th 2010

2010-01-29T09:19:00.003+08:00

The long awaited day is here! It's finally HERE! Hells yeah I stoked! I'm gonna spend the whole day with Joanna, Wong Mei Yuan, Michelle and Tracy! And later BOYS LIKE GIRLS! I seriously hope they love the little scrapbook/photo book we made for them! Nervous! Mei was at their concert last night in Singapore and she said it was AWESOME! Now it's Malaysia's turn to show them how much we love them! TONIGHT!

p.s. I'm on a mission tonight! To fight my way up front before the boys perform!

So I miss a day

2010-01-28T11:49:00.002+08:00

I was out all day yesterday decided to make a scrapbook as a gift to the boys of BOYS LIKE GIRLS tomorrow during the M&G. And I just woke up! Mei is at Singapore now for the BOYS LIKE GIRLS concert in Singapore! She bought the concert ticket before the world found out that they were coming to Malaysia TOMORROW! Gosh, I have to stop capsing certain words! But I can't help it! Just got the email on details for tomorrow M&G! Here's the deal..the info given I feel isn't enough!And here I am left kinda confused. The M&G was suppose to be after the concert and now it is at 9p.m so what time does Boys Like Girls perform?! Cause I don't want to loose my spot if they perform after the M&G I wanna be as up front as possible while their on stage! I don't know...not really in the mood now..gotta go and print photos for my scrapbook. Later loves.

LESS THAN ONE MORE DAY TO SEEING BOYS LIKE GIRLS LIVE!

Soon....REAL soon!

2010-01-26T20:50:00.003+08:00

Jenn! This is all your fault cause you're crazy! But you are doing this! You are so doing this and you're gonna pour your heart in it and be proud of it and they are going to love it!

photo I took during H-Artistry press con.

LESS THAN 3 MORE DAYS!!!!!

#boyslikegirls top 2 on trending topic on Twitter!

2010-01-25T09:50:00.003+08:00

I'm just really glad that Asia fans showed the world our love for Boys Like Girls. Way a go Indonesian fans! I believe they were the ones who made #boyslikegirls a trending topic! The boys couldn't stop thanking them for it!

4 more days! To when I can see the boys live say woo00t!

Countdown to NOKIA LAUNCH PARTY featuring BOYS LIKE GIRLS

2010-01-24T18:42:00.000+08:00

5 more days

Remember Me movie trailer

2010-01-22T12:55:00.000+08:00

Am so looking forward to this movie as well!

The Runaways Trailer&Movie Clipt

2010-01-22T10:35:00.001+08:00

The Runaways is a 2010 biographical film, based on the 1970s all-girl rock band of the same name. The film was written and directed by Floria Sigismondi, and stars Kristen Stewart as Joan Jett, Dakota Fanning as Cherie Currie, Stella Maeve as Sandy West, Scout Taylor-Compton as Lita Ford, and Michael Shannon as Kim Fowley. Alia Shawkat plays the band's bassist, a fictional character named Robin, created due to legal issues preventing the portrayal of bassist Jackie Fox.^[1]

tweeted by @benjaminmadden (Benji Madden from Good Charlotte)

2010-01-20T20:11:00.003+08:00

I'm going to see BOYSLIKEGIRLS! AGAIN!!!

2010-01-20T19:24:00.003+08:00

If you heard a dork that was on the radio by the name Jennifer that Natelie from hitz.fm called then you are damn right that's me! I listen to myself back and I could not stop laughing! I sounded like I was about to burst out crying or something! Really thank you lord for allowing me to win! So stoked! Now I can really concentrate on everything else till the 29th!!!

Tired tired TIRED!

2010-01-16T21:30:00.004+08:00

well we got our hair done today! we as in me and Jo~ Bought bunch of stuff for school...pricey shit! Got my star touched up. and yea...pretty much it. apparently i'm back to being gothic..instead of being called emo. hah- wonder if that's a good thing or a bad hmmm.. anyway here are pictures~

what's the plan tomorrow wake up around 6 take care of the dog..Jo wants loves my eye make up today so gonna do their and make up if i can tomorrow and obviously do mine too! should take about an hour for myself. i hope. dies.

BTW just got my tatt touched up so if you view it at full view you can see it's a lil swollen and reddish lines.

XOXO
J

So yeah it's been awhile..

2010-01-15T20:24:00.003+08:00

So yeah it's been awhile since up updated my blog about anything about me that wasn't emo? GOSH! Every time I think about the word "emo" I am reminded of a certain person! And so now I refuse to be labeled emo if possible! So how have I been lately? I'm been doing pretty good miss some people don't miss some...still might wanna claw out others face; but hey I'm a girl that's what we do! I'm pretty- well very actually caught up in school work now...can't delay it anymore gotta burn A LOT of oil! And cramping until I grad! Am gonna get my hair CHOPPED again! Yes! Tomorrow with Jo and going to reink my 'star' tattoo, then gonna shop for materials and stock up for school and exam...feathers HERE I COME! And crazy fake eyelashes too! Then I need to design a scythe and on Sunday going Pyramid with Jo and Joanne and hoping to meet up with a few others as well. Oh, so much to be done and gotta know how to manage my time! Well anyway today went with Christine for lunch and then chilled in her room and she help me print my thesis and I'm gonna bind it into a book tomorrow need to get the stuff before I can do it. I love her to death! Well that's pretty much it. I know I'm boring but you know my life isn't that happening and right now I'm actually really happy bout that cause I'm too exhausted emotionally and physically I just wanna chill and get what I need done while I listen to the music that I love.

And here's a lil unrelated video I would like to share with everyone.

XOXO
J

I WAS FROZEN TODAY! (via Christine Lim)

2010-01-15T20:17:00.001+08:00

Brice Dallas Howard talks Eclipse&David Slade

2010-01-12T17:46:00.002+08:00

Eclipse Bryce Dallas Howard Jackson Rathbone Hollywood Dailies | Movie Trailers

Martin Johnson now has a girlfriend?

2010-01-11T23:17:00.003+08:00

Can someone please tell me if it's a rumor or not? Yes I know all Boys Like Girls fan girls hearts are being shattern right now and are constantly googling to find out who is Briga Heelan. Yeah, sure my heart sank when I saw the picture it was enough proof that the rumor is true. But I'll live. If Martin is happy and still is as grounded as he was and still is and still adores his fans then I'm down with whatever makes him happy.

XOXO J

Heavy Metal Dog!

2010-01-11T20:29:00.001+08:00

Ashley Greene (Alice Cullen from TWILIGHT) Skinsuits” Sports Illustrated 2010 Swimsuit Issue!

2010-01-10T21:11:00.004+08:00

If your a guy and you're into TWILIGHT SAGA and you think the actress who plays Alice; Edward Cullen's sister is hot! Then you will wanna see these pictures of the actress in a Sports Illustrated photo shoot for 2010. And all she has on is paint! Yes, I shit you not.

To read the full article about it and to view all the pictures of the photo shoot just click on the link here.

From yours truly;
XOXO
J

More news on the Allah protest

2010-01-08T22:35:00.003+08:00

http://m.themalaysianinsider.com/
http://www.malaysiakini.com/news/121485

Churches are being burned down because of the word 'Allah'!

2010-01-08T19:00:00.004+08:00

I am feeling very hurt about this! I found out about it this morning from Christine about the burning of churches because it has been approve in court that it is allowed for all to use the word 'Allah'. Here the link for more info on it. http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,582537,00.html

Check Out the People's Choice Awards Winners! (by PopSugarUK)

2010-01-07T22:14:00.000+08:00

Last night the People's Choice Awards were held in LA, attracting a huge selection of stars from movies, TV and music! The winners were voted for by the public, and Twilight was a big winner, taking four awards including Favourite Movie! The vampire craze showed up elsewhere as both True Blood and The Vampire Diaries also received awards. Johnny Depp received the Favourite Male Movie Star and Favourite Movie Actor of the Decade awards, while the music categories were ruled by Lady GaGa, Keith Urban and Taylor Swift.

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Check out the full list of winners, just read more.

MOVIES

FAVOURITE MOVIE
Twilight

FAVOURITE COMEDY MOVIE
The Proposal

FAVOURITE FAMILY MOVIE
Up

FAVOURITE INDEPENDENT MOVIE
Inglourious Basterds

FAVOURITE MOVIE FRANCHISE
Twilight

FAVOURITE MALE MOVIE STAR
Johnny Depp

FAVOURITE FEMALE MOVIE STAR
Sandra Bullock

FAVOURITE ACTION STAR
Hugh Jackman

FAVOURITE COMEDIC STAR
Jim Carrey

FAVOURITE BREAKOUT MOVIE ACTRESS
Miley Cyrus

FAVOURITE BREAKOUT MOVIE ACTOR
Taylor Lautner

FAVOURITE ONSCREEN TEAM
Robert Pattinson, Kristen Stewart and Taylor Lautner, Twilight

FAVOURITE MOVIE ACTOR OF THE DECADE
Johnny Depp

TELEVISION

FAVOURITE TV DRAMA
House

FAVOURITE TV COMEDY
The Big Bang Theory

FAVOURITE TV DRAMA ACTOR
Hugh Laurie, House

FAVOURITE TV DRAMA ACTRESS
Katherine Heigl, Grey's Anatomy

FAVOURITE TV OBSESSION
True Blood

FAVOURITE TV TALK SHOW
The Ellen DeGeneres Show

FAVOURITE SCI-FI / FANTASY SHOW
Supernatural

FAVOURITE TV COMPETITION SHOW
American Idol

FAVOURITE ANIMAL SHOW
The Dog Whisperer

FAVOURITE TV COMEDY ACTOR
Steve Carell

FAVOURITE TV COMEDY ACTRESS
Alyson Hannigan

FAVOURITE NEW TV DRAMA
The Vampire Diaries

FAVOURITE NEW TV COMEDY
Glee

MUSIC

FAVOURITE MALE ARTIST
Keith Urban

FAVOURITE FEMALE ARTIST
Taylor Swift

FAVOURITE COUNTRY ARTIST
Carrie Underwood

FAVOURITE R&B ARTIST
Mariah Carey

FAVOURITE ROCK BAND
Paramore

FAVOURITE MUSIC COLLABORATION
Jay-Z, Rihanna & Kanye West, "Run This Town"

FAVOURITE HIP HOP ARTIST
Eminem

FAVOURITE BREAKOUT MUSIC ARTIST
Lady Gaga

FAVOURITE POP ARTIST
Lady Gaga

FAVOURITE WEB CELEB
Ashton Kutcher

Greatful & Looking Forward to...

2009-12-31T10:26:00.011+08:00

Go on call me a lazy ass I have been putting this off for sometimes now! But I am gonna post this! TODAY! Hmm..where do I start? Well made some new friends! One of them was from BoysLikeGirls concert during Hennessys Artistry in Malaysia! She's crazy and we love her to death! Then we met the sisters through her and managed to keep in touch through TECHNOLOGY! And believe it or not..TWITTER!

And they came over to our place yesterday and was treated to my mom's famous LAKSA! Just looking at it makes my mouth water! And we rarely get to eat it! Which makes it that much more special!

Then there's my 20th birthday..it was a small celebration but I love small celebrations once in awhile, you get the opportunity to really bond with close knit friends! First we feast than we drank like barbarians! OK maybe not barbarians...but you get what I mean!

Then I got my own little star~ I loved it the moment I saw it on yes...Martin Johnson's hand from Boys Like Girls. He designed the star himself!!!! Well mine ain't exactly like his but it's similar and I love it! And I'm sure a lot of you have already seen it...

But here it is for those who haven't.

And of course I got to go to 3 awesome concerts this year! First up was MTV WORLD STAGE than there was BOYS LIKE GIRLS well it wasn't just them because it was a H-Artistry event! So Lenka was there Paul Freeman and Hsiao Hung Jen! It was an absolutely amazing night! And the day before the concert I got to take pictures of the boys and of course a picture with MARTIN!

And things to look forward to in 2010? More time spend with my family and friends! Stress of school and graduating! Stress of planning my 21ST BIRTHDAY! It's gonna be scary cause we never know what's gonna happen next! But all the same for once I am looking forward to it!
And of course I'm going to PARAMORE'S concert in March!!! Tickets have already been bought! Stoked!

Well that's all for now! See you next year. Oh, and of course
HAPPY NEW YEARS EVE!!
XOXO
J

A message to EVERYONE..

2009-12-23T16:40:00.001+08:00

Smoking KILLS!

XOXO
J

Are you ready for some jaw dropping, eye popping, drool tastic experience?

2009-12-21T21:29:00.003+08:00

Ladies and (ek-em) gentlemen and all you BOYS LIKE GIRLS fans!!! I present to you Martin Bennet Johnson! (this may not be a very recent photo of him but it IS after all still him!)

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XOXO
J

In Loving Memory Of Brittany Murphy

2009-12-21T09:48:00.004+08:00

While for others life goes on as it always does but for some they moan and make preparations for the funeral of a beloved woman name Brittany Murphy. She was 32 when she died on 20th December 2009. Reports say she died of a heart attack. I am still shock about her sudden death! And also the fact that there has been shockingly a lot of deaths this year! And already in Wikipedia they have a section on her d death. Sigh.. For more news about her death you can read it all here. My heart goes out to her family and may they find peace in the mid of such a tragedy.

Curse the connection!

2009-12-20T21:40:00.002+08:00

Was actually planning to update my blog today but the connection went from OK to damn it what is wrong with the connection?! Roarr!! Will try posting what I wanted to post tonight tomorrow. Bleh!

XOXO

Behind The Scene Footage Of BOYS LIKE GIRLS - TWO IS BETTER THAN ONE (MTV.com)

2009-12-20T09:50:00.002+08:00

Boys Like Girls - MTV Shows

Wake Up Call

2009-11-27T19:39:00.002+08:00

Everyone secretly wishes their life to be like a fairy tale like when we're alone in our rooms or we have a little time for ourselves, our mind often drifts off to place full of "what if's" "it would be nice to" "how i wish" but we always need to come back down to earth. We can never have the happy ending or somehow find a way to magically make things to turn out the way we want them to..why? Cause we're only humans there are things that we can do in our power and things that we can't. We make mistakes and we're selfish sometimes even cold and heartless. And somehow sometimes no matter how hard you try you can never expect things to turn out the way you want them to. There will always be something that will pull you down and also things that will cheer you up. But that's life. Life's a bitch and sometimes you just gotta be the bigger bitch; but sometimes you just gotta be humble and grounded.

PS. Am not being all emo just writing out what's on my mind.

XOXO
J

All mags and articles featuring BOYS LIKE GIRLS; just for the fans

2009-11-10T21:16:00.005+08:00

JUICE Malaysia November 2009

H-Artistry The Global Art of Mixing once again rocked the streets this time with rock quarters Boys Like Girls, actress and singer Lenka, pop-rock musician Paul Freeman, and Taiwan sensation, Hsiao Hung Jen.

Taking Quatro, Avenue K by storm, the event saw more than 1.000 party-goers congregate for one spectacular night of stellar performances. The fusion of musical acts from East and West lined-up for the night sizzled from beginning to end and put clubbers on an astral journey of canorous beats.

Partyygoers, who showed up as early as 8pm in their best party outfits, were charged up with anticipation as they made their way through to the Art of Mixing zone, which compromised of 3 sections - the DJ Mixing Booth, VJ Mixing Booth and The Art of Mixing Bar. These areas provide music lovers with a chance to try their hands at spinning their own tunes, creating their own imagenery and experiencing the different types of Hennessy VSOP long drinks. With Sarah Lian and the energetic MC Ivory, working the crowd, the first act of the night Taiwanese singing sensation Hsiao Hung Jen, had fans in a frenzy as he flawlessly delievered well-loved catchy pop hits. Welsh-born Paul Freeman came up on stage to thunderous applause from the crowd. Known for his magical ability to connect with the crowd audience through the powerful lyrics of his songs, the atmosphere took on a soulful vibe as revellers swayed in tune to the beat. Staying true to H-Artistry's innovation approach in blending musical genres, Hsiao Hung Jen reappeared on stage, this time, collaborating with Paul Freeman to perform a cover of Robbie William's 'Better Man'. Australian television actress and songstress, Lenka performed a variety of songs from her latest album, but it was hit song 'The Show' that really got the crowd to go wild. Before exiting the stage, pop-rocker Paul Freeman surprising audiences as he came back up on stage for yet another H-Artistry duet.

Still, there was no doubt that most of those who came were there to see Boys Like Girls. Even before the US pop group appeared on stage., the crowd was already screaming with enthusiams. And when they did, the atmosphere turned electrifying. BLG performed some of their chart-topping hits like 'Love Drunk','The Great Escape' and 'Thunder', which got everyone head-banging and singing along. The night took another exciting turn, when lead vocalist Martin stage-dived at the audience, leaving those lucky enough to catch him hysterical.

When the curtains finally came down, H-Artistry party-goers were left in high-spirits and many stayed on to enjoy the exuberant atmosphere that still lingered in the air. With delectable Hennessy VSOP long drinks, a winning combination of class acts ans a rich blend of sights, sounds and tastes, H-Artistry The Global Art of Mixing proved once again that music truly brings people together.

November 1-15th Issue Of Galaxie Magazine

Well I was there during the H-Artistry and I was also there during the H-Artistry press con. that's how I managed to take a picture with Martin and during the concert it was insane! When they performed they just had a way just connecting with every single person in the crowd! And I will always remember Martin going "And this next song is to all the REAL fans of Boys Like Girls. Who know who we REALLY are." Gawd I died that night! Although I didn't managed to catch him when he dived into the crowd, he did had his arm around my neck as he reached out to grab fans hands, I really did die.

More scans to come so stay tune~
XOXO
J

Group shot with The All American Rejects

2009-11-03T20:44:00.003+08:00

When you see my face, hope it gives you hell! hope it gives you hell!
XOXO
J

AAR during meet and greet in Pavilion

2009-11-02T21:09:00.003+08:00

What a month of OCTOBER!!

2009-11-01T19:32:00.004+08:00

I gotta admit the month of September...SUCKS but the month of October well there was the usual ups and downs but way more UP's than DOWN's! First of course is cause I gotta meet BOYS LIKE GIRLS! At the press con in Quattro and then the next day watch them perform and other artist as well in Hennesy Artistry 09! Got to be so effing up close and personal with them so hell 'yea I'm happy! And I met an awesome girl there! Mei Yuan Wong!! Love her to death! And yesterday we met up with her and her friend Fika, bring and early in Pavilion for the meet and greet with ALL AMERICAN REJECTS! I managed to get a hug from Mike and Tyson~ didn't managed to get any from Nick and Chris cause well...security was fucking ridiculous. It's a meet and greet! The person in charge of "Universal Music Malaysia" was practically screaming "No! No! No!" when I ask Mike for a hug which he gladly gave to me. Hey, seriously bitch I asked him, not you so who are you to scream no? So there were like two security guards standing really close to me since I hugged Mike so yea...didn't managed to get some from Nick or Chris. But when it came to Tyson I said "Hey Tyson, can I have a hug?" and he smiled and said "Sure, sure" calling me to the side since he was at the end of the table and the security guard was literally blocking my way there and Tyson kept asking me to just come over, so I did and I got my hug! HAH! During the concert it was insane! Jumped like crazy and screamed and sang to all their songs except the song "Last Song" yea...I don't know it..lolx. Oh yea and cause we decided to buy their album so we got a token that we could exchange for special passes for a meet and greet section after the concert...only the first 100 who bought the album at the meet and greet in Pavilion that morning got them. Hell yea we were stoked! Until we got in camera man took our picture then started chasing us out. Yeap, what the fuck! You call that a meet and greet? Me and my sis were standing towards the side I was in front between Nick and Tyson and my sis was directly in front of Nick and the moment we took our printed out photos of them for them to sign the security guard started roughly pulling and shoving at my sister! And Nick was still signing the picture! Idiots! We were causing any havoc! The security guards were! Damn babi! Mei gave Tyson the left over little tube of glitter that we poured on ourselves and he was so happy about it~ His eyes went HUGE as he said "Ooo! Glitter~" And then I gave him the picture he posted just reasonly on Twitter he was again totally excited calling out to his guys "Guys! Hey Nick it's my picture on Twitter! That's so cool!" and Nick replied, "Hey, yea that's awesome." and Tyson called for the video mans attention recording him holding up the autograph photo showing it off...it was just so cute! And me and Jo talked a little with Nick despite the assholes security guards, sis went "Hey Nick." and his like "Hey how are ya'" and she was like "Fine, we saw you guys this morning." paused then "Yea! At the mall right? Crazy day huh? I was a little hung over then...sorry." and then I asked "Hey Nick can I get a hug?" he looks at me smiles and then looks at the security guards being asses and look back at me smiling apologetically holding his can of Tiger beer, "I don't think they allow, so sorry." and me "That's OK, thanks." that's when the security guards got really violet! Pulling on my friends arm so hard they lost their balance! And AAR's crew guy well as Tyson calls him "his boy!" was yelling, "Guys! Guys! Stop hurting them! Please! Don't kill those girls!" Everything was caught on camera! Ridiculous idiots! They gave themselves such a bad name! Seriously! I mean the guys from AAR looked embarrass as well! It's a meet and greet for crying out loud!

Anyway while waiting for AAR to get ready to perform after all 3 opening acts I played with fake blood which well Jo and Wing Tsun were having a fun time dripping all over my head. Yes, people...FREAKED! Paramedics threaten to take me away! The 3 of us keep laughing and saying that it's fake seriously! Oh and this foreigner chick who reminds us of Sally Ann kept sneaking up to the VIP section only to get chased down whining and making pussy sounds. It was hillarious!

Will probably upload more pictures but for now, here are some. Sorry but I know I look fat in 'em.
XOXO
J

During the Meet and Greet at Pavilion. Me, Mei Yua, Fika and Jo.

while we were waiting for the gates to open so we can make our way closest to the stage. We're glitter-ising ourselves.

Didn't managed to take pictures of AAR performing cause we were dead tired DIGI organized the whole thing badly, we waited forever just for the local bands to get out so we stood at a side where we could see the stage and the screen which is next to the VIP platform area.

Rest of pics will be uploaded ASAP! Connection sucks and uploading video on Facebook.

been awhile but i did promise pictures right?

2009-10-25T09:37:00.004+08:00

i only choose to post up a few pictures...so here they are...enjoy~

Stick around for...

2009-10-17T00:35:00.002+08:00

Am gonna post pictures that Adam and his college assignment group took of me portraying a goth well...sorta- they did a great job... just maybe the model should have done a better job =) so if your really looking forward to seeing them...well stick around then!

XOXO
J

Photos of Boys Like Girls during Hennessy Artistry press con. and concert

2009-10-10T20:57:00.020+08:00

Photos during the Press Con.

Night Of Hennessy Artistry concert; Boys Like Girls finally taking the stage.

Rest of the photos are posted on my Facebook.
XOXO
J

Press Con. & Invites to Hsiao Hung Jen, Paul Freeman, Lenka and Boys Like Girls mini concert.

2009-10-03T19:06:00.002+08:00

First up thank you to Yat for taking us to the press con. where we were given the opportunity to meet very talented performers, and get up close to Martin, Paul, Bryan and John- well at least for me. Sis was standing at the corner with Yat. Honestly...there isn't much I can blog about how the day was because it was fucking awesome and you have to be there to know how it feels.
BLG totally rocked the stage at MTV World Stage and we definitely didn't have enough of them but never in a million years did I ever thought that I would be given the opportunity to actually see these talented dudes up close and personal! Sure they were jet lagged after just arriving all the way from Hong Kong but they still put on a smile and answered questions when asked. Very friendly dudes.
Honestly I had no idea who on earth was this Taiwan and British dude; Hung Jen and Paul Freeman but after hearing their performance last night they seriously are not bad! And Lenka is so tiny! I actually had a hard time taking pictures of her during last nights performance. But she was amazing! They were amazing and a very lucky lady of ours got called up stage to perform a song with Paul Freeman! Still don't know who he is? What are you waiting for? Google him already! No the lucky lady wasn't me or Jo...it was our friend Justine Ho.
Honestly the entire right side of my body hurts from the hug on the neck Martin gave me from the stage, and he grabbed my hand before that while the others reached out to grab his...yeap awesome! am i star struck? naaah! LOLX...effing happy? HELL YEA! And I had Bryan&Martin's, spit+water drench all over me and Jo. I think Martin and John actually recognized me and Jo from Thursday at the press con. Well we do have recognizable faces...not necessarily always good thing when your trying to cheat your way into getting some more tics to last nights performance when one person is entitled to get ONE goody bag only. Sorry Adam and Edward...can't say I didn't try! Well..am uploading pics of last nights performance on my facebook. Here are pictures I took of the performers from the press con. to last nights performance. You can check out the pictures I took of at the press con. as well. BTW we got our Love Drunk CD autograph by them at the press con. as well! Yay us? But most of all it felt very personal that BLG loves coming back to Malaysia they were totally stoked about it even before they got to our country and were blown away during MTV World Stage and they said the feeling that they had during MTV World Stage they were reliving it again!

Pictures will be uploaded SOON! So stay tune!

10 Reasons People Cut Themselves By CrimsonAndRedx73

2009-09-27T18:16:00.006+08:00

10 different reasons many people feel that harming themselves is the only way to make them feel better.

Many different people across the world, no matter what age, sometimes need to cut themselves, or inflict pain onto themselves in order for the to feel better. This happens for many different, explainable reasons.

Cutting is a Disorder

Many different people that suffer from different forms of depression, cut after reaching a peak in sorrow. Which is very reasonable. Seeing them bleed reminds them that they are still able to feel something, and that life isn’t over yet.

2. A Cry For Help

Some people cut themselves to show others they need help in life, they need to find something or someone that can give them a reason for why they should be here. They don’t tell to increase the effectiveness of anyone wanting to help them if they somehow find out.

3. For Attention

Many teens or other people cut themselves in hope for attention. In hope that someone will care that they do it. These people are usually the ones that go off and tell everyone that they do it, just so they’ll feel bad for them.

4. It puts them in control

Some people cut in order to see that they are in control of something. Seeing the blood and feeling the pain shows them they can control at least one thing, which is good positive reinforcement.

5. A symbol of love

Many different people think that carving their lovers name into them is a good way of showing them that you love them, and that you’ll go through any amount of pain for them. This isn’t always the best idea. Yes some people do think it’s very passionate and caring, but if they truly love you, they won’t want you to do that to yourself.

6. Cutting relieves stress

When someone cuts themselves, pain relieving chemicals called Endorphins are released to relieve stress or emotional pain.

7. They like how it looks

Alright, I honestly hate when people do this. They only cut themselves to see how it looks, or the cool patterns they can make. This is possibly one of the worst decisions you can make. If you want to do that, just draw something instead.

8. They feel like they deserve it

Many people are very self-loathing these days and want to do whatever they can to hurt themselves after making bad decisions. Cutting usually comes into play there.

9. They like the pain

Some people are just truly messed up and like being hurt, so they do things like cutting in order to feel pain. But the truth is, when people cut themselves for reasons that actually make sense, they are too worked up to feel any pain at all.

10. Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID)

Many people suffer from Dissociative Identity Disorder, meaning they have somewhat of multiple personalities. And the only way they could get through the different problems and different pain, was cutting or self-harming to relieve it all.

i used to be a cutter or as i like to put it a bleeder myself. but i've stopped for a couple of years now but that doesn't mean i don't have the urge to do it again whenever things get too hard for me to handle which is quite often. but i don't see the point of it. i did it cause i needed some kind of release for the pain i felt inside. sometimes i did it just to know that i'm still human.

so don't be so quick to judge all cutters/bleeders they all have their reasons for doing it. and it's sad that they have to do this to themselves just so they can cope with things. honestly all i can say is the only way to stop is to find a way to release your hurt and anger in a much healthier way like writing out whichever that works for you. if you want to you can. it's still not too late.

XOXO
J

it'll pass...

2009-09-26T13:19:00.000+08:00

yesterday was my birthday....it was fun and it sucked and it hurt and i'm emo but it will pass.

3 more days to go...

2009-09-22T15:44:00.002+08:00

till ARTHUR'S DAY! but unfortunately i won't be able to go...ugh.. or to AAR's concert next month which i want to go so bad! aiihz... feel so...aiihz...

well last year i posted 19 random things i don't regret, so i am now wondering if i should post 20 random things again this year before friday..we'll see..so keep checking if you wanna find out if i posted it or not.

XOXO
J

it always starts with a few spams of "hi.."

2009-09-20T20:11:00.002+08:00

i kinda don't get how some people can be so to actually add random people on msn through forward emails. it's crazy and creepy! yes my msn contact is on my deviantART page, but i have already warned for people to ask before they add me. usually people that add me from there and have accounts aren't so rude to request for webcam or ask rude questions or try to flash me their dicks or tits. it's usually people that don't have deviantART accounts that do that. the other day a few people added me on msn after i posted some self portraits, and it was really kinda of weird that they would add me on msn and i was already preparing for them to ask me questions that i rather not answer. one of them was a girl who told me she's bi, sure ok. then she ask some questions pretty personal ones and i indirectly said i rather not answer any more of it, and she ask if i was straight, i said yes. she ask if i was 100% straight. seriously? like answering yes to the 1st one isnt good enough for her? again i said; yes. that's when she said no one is 100% straight, and her dp pic is her lying down with her huge tits press on a pillow, you can only see the shot of her upper body and not her face. wow, is that meant to make me wet? cause i din give shit. then another request for web cam viewing every time i'm on and keeps asking "you there?" like every half an hour. now i am wondering is he high on crack or something?

then there is facebbok. ok maybe i shouldn't except people i don't know or have any mutual friends but i'm just too slumber and i except anyway, but seriously..doesn't mean i except you, you have to be so persistent! first question "what are you doig?", "where are you from", "how old are you?" "can i have your number?" WOW! slow down there mate, my number? like seriously? i don't even know you! you don't even bother to put a clear display picture of yourself! which doesn't really matter cause i never check out their profiles, unless their someone i know. and if sking for my number isn't bad enough, when i say no they ask for my msn, when i say no they ask me other stupid qustions. creeps. learned my lesson.

XOXO
J

the ugly truth

2009-09-18T23:50:00.002+08:00

watch the movie today with william, well pretty much spend the whole day with him which was awesome and the movie is awesome! hillarious and relatable. cudos to katherine heigl and gerard butler who did an amazing job. showing that not all relationships works base on lust, and eventhough a man who has spend half his life in and out of messy relationships and finally giving up telling himself it's time to be a man stop following your heart but your dick; can find the right one in the end. yes, girls; wemon we get needy and we have this idea of a perfect guy who has to have all the qualities we're looking for in a man. but screw that list, it will get you no where. you don't really need a reason to love someone or to like someone. sometimes i feel the best answer when ask why do you love someone is just a simply; i don't know i just do.

XOXO
J

you wanna help him? stop bringing her up!

2009-09-18T00:00:00.004+08:00

i'm only human. his my best friend...but this is how i'm feeling right now, i hate seeing him hurt, how majority of the time he would smile and laugh when his not feeling up for it. sick of him moping around sick of him always feeling torn. sick of some of his friends keep bringing her up! how his better off without her! if you guys wanna help stop fucking bringing her up! you know what i'm really tired, and emotionally drained from other shit myself. i can't figure out why the fuck he won't tell her straight to her face how he is really feeling! he just keeps holding everything in! it ain't healthy seriously. he should know by now he owes himself better than that. you know what...i'm done caring for the night. seriously, frustrated is what i am now.

XOXO
J

I'm not crazy!!

2009-09-16T13:34:00.006+08:00

i was in my room and i was thinking i suppose it was about time i changed my facebook profile picture. and then i figured how about i play around and take pics of a girl whose totally lost it? and i did and the result of it is..some of the pics kind of scare me. btw as i type this some chic who surfs deviantART but doesn't have an acc just added me on msn and tells me she's bi. do i care? nope. am i intrested? hah! maybe in another life. now she seems disappointed and is making 100% sure i'm straight. i like looking at hot chics but i don't wanna make out with them. and i don't feel like talking to her not cause she's bi..but i don't like to socialise with people who likes adding strangers off the internet. fuck! don't tell me she's trying to hit on me! haha. whatever. anyway here's a pic you would find in my facebook album. if you have me on your list that is. if not..well too bad.

and here is a pic i didn't post on facebook. the other i did.

it's all about time

2009-09-15T22:11:00.002+08:00

it sucks but time is what we need, to forget someone or something to heal wounds. but you need to give yourself time as well. a lot of people around me are going through different shit in their lives; well so am i, but i believe that we can make it through this. well today chilled with adam, edward and their pals. sorry cause i can't remember all their names. fun bunch! we chilled in edward's room watching ginger snaps 2, it was ok...ending was quite expected out of a movie like ginger snaps. recorded the dudes crying? due to eating some super spicy stuff, i will not say what it is cause they wanna con people into trying it. well had a blast with them. and i recorded them eating the spicy shit will posted on facebook tomorrow..gonna try to sleep "early" tonight.

XOXO
J

kanye think before you speak

2009-09-14T13:37:00.000+08:00

if only he would take as much time as he does writing his music, to think before he speaks or does something, a lot of people would respect him. even if they did tonight at the VMA's all that has changed.

i am now checking out Vampire Diaries

2009-09-14T12:08:00.002+08:00

well last week has been a mixture of dull and hectic; but i ain't complaining. went shopping yesterday- well maybe not the kind of shopping most girls would count it as. and i love bangsar~ so many boutiques and some has awesome stuff in it! i bought 2 tops. love 'em! but didn't really throw on much stuff cause my figure is still kind of bloated. and the video i posted from youtube on New Moon's latest trailer has been taken down thanks to Summit Entertainment..aww.. oOO! some just got sucked dry in vampire diaries as i type this post. hahax! anyway kind of glad that i decided to download it eventhough it's not really the clear version. man watching this series makes me wanna write again! and considering if i should collect the series! eep! well it's definately different from the book, big duh! there. for starters the character's looks maybe? but whatever. i knew i should have bought the book the first time i saw it! cause this series seems awesome!

btw; adam is adicted to blogging- which i think is normal, i was addicted to it at first too. blogging. that's all for now i guess.

XOXO
J

tooooday- o wait. yesterday.

2009-09-13T00:27:00.004+08:00

before i get to that i am watching ANOTHER new; New Moon trailer. yes! i am so stoked and screaming inside despite how tired i am right now. so stoked for new moon to come out in november 27th! hell yes!

anyway yesterday was suppose to be and totally been planned out by sis to be a girls day out. it did started out that way. getting dress looking casual but cute. well she did, not me. i always look well- how should i put it rock star meets lady-like yet not quite there? at least my smoky eye make up -sorta; turned out ok. just needed to touch up every time the eyeshadow melted. anyway, jo got her conch pierced, hair done and for the rest of the day we followed the guys from the gardens to midvalley to bangsar to shop. trust me, i wasn't too happy, i was pretty whinny too- i can't help it! it's that time again! but tomorrow- wait. later in a few hours we will shop! for real! need to get some stuff outfits for my bday. don't even think there will be a party. so sick of planning stuff all the time for myself and others. why can't the tables be turn this time around?

XOXO
J

Ba da ba da ba...

2009-09-11T20:21:00.003+08:00

well ello to y'all again. school life SUCKS. but that's nothing new. yes i'm sounding like a typical teenager who hates the world and what not. but have you ever even met someone who goes "I LOVE SCHOOL!" well if your that person. congrats to you. cause i'm not.
yesterday was a hard day as you all can read in my previous blog entry.
my teacher told me yesterday that quote, "no one cares about you in school, no teacher even bothers about you, have you notice that? your so weak what do you think your juniors think of you."
well i couldn't give a shit what my juniors think of me. those little bitches who are manipulative psychos! why would i care about what a bunch of girls who work in a club and seduce man to get what they want, think of me?
why would i care about a girl who skips- yes you heard me skips around as she walks swigging her lil' hair from side to side but cries easily think of me?
i come to school practically every effing day! and not a single teacher gave a damn about me from the moment i entered the school! so how is that my fault?
and when there was finally a teacher who would bother to take responsibility for me ends up hating her job cause no one would help her out.
the world is unfair. yea, you don't need to be a genius to figure that out.
but you don't need to be that bitch to make others life miserable.
i'm trying my hardest to be a good student.
yes i'm effing slow in my studies that's why people look down on me.
well FYI. boo you loosers!
don't look down on someone you think you know, cause you obviously don't know me.
i may be bad at one thing, but i am good at other things.
so stick that up your nose.
if you get me know that i love you.

yes! i'm frustated, is that wrong? no ones there for me when i need them. did i chase them away? no i don't think so. i just stop turning to them. i didn't want to be a bother. which clearly i am.

XOXO
J

amazing.

2009-09-10T21:08:00.003+08:00

One of Paramore's FAVOURITE performance ever. And I can totally see why. Here are the footage of their concert in London. It was a small one and it was so much more personal.

more to come.
XOXO
J

what fortune tellers, hororscopes. psychics can't predict.

2009-09-10T20:25:00.002+08:00

today you will have one of the worst days of your life, but again it could be worst. first you will wake up with a headache, forget your phone and reach school late. then you will total go zombie mode and nothing your teacher teaches you gets in your head even though your trying effing hard till a point your teacher wants to shoot herself in the head and you will suddenly start crying uncontrollably for more than an hour. trust me honey you don't even have a clue what cause it but you know you cry easily during this period of time. sucks to be you; but again. could be worst. then you will head to lunch and take a bite out of your meal and your stomach will hurt like hell cause you really need to go to the toilet, but no worries. you'll be able to hold it in until after your done. well sorta. then you will run to the toilet and managed to find an empty filthy cubicle and let the shit gates open; then again...could be worst. then when you flush the toilet shit water splashes all over your feet. could be worst. seriously. oh yea. when you reach home and take a nice shower while your shampooing your hair you will turn to add some more shampoo and when you do that your hair will smack you straight in your right eye and it's gonna burn your eye, until when? only god knows honey. sorry. but it still burns as you type this entry. and when you open your cardboard to grab your shots, one side of the door will hit you straight in the head. but again. could have been worst.

XOXO
J

cramps always cramp up my style. cheesy but so true.

2009-09-09T18:54:00.003+08:00

i was in a mood to do somethings until i woke up this morning and i only want to laze around the house. not like it really helps my current situation. NOTHING EVER HELPS ARGH~~!!! how do you convince a guy not to watch porn? you can't. well sorta. even if he promises not to he can do it behind your back. whatever. those fake shit. bleh! yes, i never saw the big deal out of it. porn aside. why am i even blogging about this in the first place? beats me.

now here's a little something for the girls. girls meet Nolan Gerard Funk. enough about Zac Efron. this hottie can sing, dance and act! not to mention he sounds very simular to Bon Jovi's front man Jon Bon Jovi. my jaw pretty much dropped when he sang! i found out about when i finally watched the movie Spectacular! it's a good movie, but it's no High School Musical that's for sure, but i ain't complaining.why would i wanna watch another HSM-like movie? but it would be better if they actually had real lighting through out the movie, cause i could barely see their faces!!! it's ridiculous! seriously! anyway i hope to see more of him and hear more of his singing cause i'm liking this dude.

Nolan Gerard Funk.

XOXO
J

i'm proud of him

2009-09-09T00:18:00.002+08:00

it was fun while it lasted and i'm sure he learned a lot...hearts were broken tears were shed, nerves ended and what not. but now that it's finally over, he ain't gonna be the one that's gonna cry all night. well...sometimes we have to date a lot of asses to find the right one, and even when we do find the right one we still have to work hard to make the relationship work, and there will be times that you feel like slapping or punching that person but overall, love will overcome it all.

so why am i talking about this anyway? hahax.

well right now it's 09/09/09. wow right. and it's abigail's birthday right now too. happy 20th b'day.

yesterday was a pretty long day i suppose. started off with chores then slacking around the house. went out got home past midnight. didn't game at all for two days WOW! can't believe we have been so well behave! kinda tired. tomorrow we'll have half the day alone then they'll be home and they won't be any peace for the next half of our life time. wow, can't wait for that to happen. NOT!

i miss peace. quiet. lazing around. and no constant nagging about shit.
i still remember her saying this; quote, "college life where got stress?" -i had those kind of momentarily wistful thinking kind of flashback that i turn around and screamed my mind to her and she just shuts up gaping at me with shock and sudden realization. life itself is fucking hard! school life is worst! being a kid is hard, you get bullied and you gotta be good or you'll get spank! being a teenager is worst cause your figuring yourself out and you got raging hormones! adulthood is unimaginable! you need to think about career, love life, marriage, parents! money! kids! life itself! see all your life there's stress! so her saying that was fucking ridiculous!
wow...
thinking about her return is making my head spin already and my blood boil. this is bad.
ROAR!
you know whatever.
come what may.
i'll just enjoy what lil' time i got left without her nagging the shit out of me for now.

life can be like a good book that you can't put down, cause there's no way of guessing what's going to happen next; or how is it going to end.

XOXO
J

leave a message and i may not ignore it.

2009-09-05T21:26:00.003+08:00

this week has been magical! drama has been unfolding all around me, annoying people have been more annoying than usual and sometimes i just feel like walking up to them and laughing at their stupid faces.
i'm now studying all about body in school now. and spending practically the whole sad day in school learning and practicing massaging till my back hurts and it's damn right tiring. and every time i think back on how majority guys act when they hear i'm studying beauty is "what the hell is that?" i feel like taking something and slapping them in the face. they assume all you need to do is look pretty and walk into a beauty salon and apply the job application form and your in. apparently even though their in college they still don't use much of their brain. kind of sad isn't it?
yeap, i'm a biatch again all because someone had to go all fucked up on me. annoying pea brains. funny how majority of my blog post is well all pissed, depress post. but you enjoy it don't you? reading about shit that upsets someone makes you go, and i thought my life sucked! huh! funny!
then there's this girl, i think we all know who she is..another Jenn hater, someone should start a club! i bet it would be a HIT! she gets hell a lot of attention guys just want her! is it because she has no attitude and i do? or she possesses a slutty one and apparently i don't. YES! i do sound jealous! but i'm a girl...can you blame me? and i bet reading this IS entertaining right? cause i rarely write jealous post. but i am so sick man seriously! every ask me why am i still single. how do i know? i'm not thin enough..boobs ain't big enough? what does my face not look pig like enough? do i look like i ain't starving enough to you? is that it?
this girl...she's fucking lucky that an awesome guy like my small boii is with her! yea some may think his a worthless shit, but he ain't he may whine and get all annoying, but who the fuck doesn't? despite his whining he puts other's first and rarely himself. frankly i don't get why he stays with her, but it's her lost when he leaves. if he does, or she leaves. either way he is a good person. with a heart! so i hope she stops treating him like fuck! or so she better hope and pray i don't find some way to give her a piece of my mind! cause i know where to find her and which buttons to push. don't mess with a biatch.
you know what? whatever...i don't need a boy toy around me to enjoy life. many of you think i live brooding and moping around all day, think again. i may be all fiery but i know how to have fun.

XOXO
J

I'm a biatch today. sue me.

2009-08-29T14:18:00.000+08:00

here's a video that has nothing to do with me. sorta.

2009-08-28T23:47:00.000+08:00

Do me a favor shut the fuck up and let me live my life. you don't see me giving fuck about what you do. if you really want to help, take time to see the fuck i'm really going through and not only see what your fucking eyes wants to see.

Random Stuff?

2009-08-25T18:17:00.005+08:00

just finish painting my nails. what color? black of course! saw a pic of Kristen Stewart with black nails and i totally miss having black nails..and now their black! i still remember in 2007 for more than 2 months my nails were black all the way! repainted them after every 3 days! crazy right? well that's me.
hmm...today in school everyone in the practical practically got kicked out of school! well cause my friends estrange sister got H1N1 but it's just minor she got her shot and she's almost fully recovered. so she tells J about it..J tells P about it and P tells A&O but O doesn't give a damn and walks away and A who ddin't seem satisfied told S. And S goes to find the headmistress and that's when drama begun. she got chased home. and we got chased out cause they needed to steralize the place. and me and Y had lunch with her. we even shared the same Starbucks drink! whatever right...
and here are pictured i took while waiting for my mom. lame.

and i actually...well last sat i followed Yng and Ruey to see the local group Friends..and i found this guy well kind of good looking. and i should have shut my big mouth and i shouldn't have ask if the girls know him or not ROAR!! cause they got their other frined who knows him to intro him to me. awckward! nothing happened don't worry. but they got me to add him in facebook. and i went...what the hell; what's the worst that could happen?? right? it's time Jenn stopped being fucking shy! woo! i did this for yoooooooou! KU WEN RUEY&KU WEN YNG!

am i stupid? but that someone is bing well........

2009-08-24T17:21:00.003+08:00

first of...well i'm stuck in school waiting for it to be 6.20p.m. ROAR!!!! i wanna go home!!! damn you Jo? o shit! did i hear thunder?! well i'm using a crappy comp with an extremely hard keyboard...but i will not complain! at least i can use the comp! if i can't i would be reading New Moon for the 10000th ime. ugh! i don't care! i love the series! well..reason for the title is...someone asked me if sh should resign i said she should. why? cause the people are giving her hell! ork is pilling up on her! work that should have been don years ago have been thrown to her! and she just startd working 2months ago! what the hell right? and that single woman who should be married and have children who are in collge- Lord forgive me. is giving her such a hard time! harrassing her about a student and work...seriously? what's wrong with you? look i know whoever is reading...which i still think no one cares to read- doesn't get what i'm ranting on about cause i'm like only typing bits and bits of the situation out cause i feel that, it's not my place to give so much inside on the situation in public. yes i respect others privacy. i don't go laying out others shiiz on the plate like a perfectly cooked and decorated meal for the whole world to see. people deserve their privacy over certain matters. even if their a real biiiautch. either way to those i love and trust if you want the whole scoop. you know my no. i can tell you about it cause it involves me. and you'll understand why my title questions my decision.

XOXO
J

hardcore heels to make your feet bleed

2009-08-22T20:04:00.004+08:00

a good high heel shoe has to have killer heels and a killer design. but if you own one you better make sure you're use to wearing high heels and running/walking around in it for HOURS! I got blisters from yesterdays shoes and i felt as if my feet were gonna snap. actually my leg muscle is tired! and my friend whose wearing the same heels as me but diff color was just fine. that's the difference between a girl who wears more flats than heels and a girl who wears more flats than heels. looking pretty always comes with a price.

and here are more pictures. i know again right...
but hey! who cares right?
"I used to be LOVE DRUNK; but NOW i'm HUNG OVER."

there's pictures and..oh? a video?

2009-08-21T18:09:00.004+08:00

usual friday thing we went for karaok...which we practically scream our lungs out to rock songs...pretty much because the people in the room next to us were out of key and howling worst than my dog howls. trust me she howls like a tone death rockstar.

and here's a pair of shoes that originally cost RM129 but i got it for RM23+ weird i know..but it was so freaking cheap and i don't know why i bought them!!!

And here are really cute shoes that gives my feet hell! Damn you!

Nia Choon's lunch.

My lunch. could not finish it! We always take too much food! andi seriously. if i knew that this is what i ordered i wouldn't have down so much salad and soup.

But lets face it people. no one really gives a damn what i post in my blog. no one comments no one cares. my bud's gf had held him hostage. when was the last time i saw him in person? i can't remember. is he even alive? hmm..if he isn't i bet she has his corpse hidden some where in her room. now i'm just being a bitch. but hey, seriously. i miss him. and today is his birthday. and i don't even know how to reach him to wish him happy birthday! damn you adam!

and here's a video of my girls singing. after all the screaming we did. this was not their best performance but that don't mean they suck!

and lastly from me to you with lot's of love;

i could kill you with a lipstick so watch it.
XOXO
J

MTV World Stage

2009-08-18T20:58:00.005+08:00

Hoobastank performing The Reason.

All American Rejects performing Wind Blows.

Tyson going as crazy as the crowd while performing their last song of the night Gives You Hell.

Pixie Lott. Gorgeous and Talented.

Mike from Boys Like Girls preforming Love Drunk.

And this is us all hot and sweaty after the concert.

Well if you got Twitter why not add them on Twitter?
Pixie Lott - http://twitter.com/pixiesongs
Hoobastank - http://twitter.com/Hoobastank
Boys Like Girls - http://twitter.com/officialBLG
All American Rejects - http://twitter.com/rejectstv

Didn't take all the pics of all the bands that performed cause majority of the time we were squeezing our way as close to the front as possible and I ain't posting the videos that Ryan took because he only managed to take bits and bits of the performance.

XOXO
J

Shit hits the floor whenever your around why is that?

2009-08-15T10:36:00.002+08:00

You annoy me...actually it seems you adore annoying me. And you know I'll effing blow up cause I don't appreciate the shit you give me the moment I wake up in the morning. So don't effin cry cause I ain't feeling sorry, or guilty. I ain't feeling nothing!

Paramore - Ignorance OFFICIAL VIDEO!

2009-08-13T21:33:00.000+08:00

Paramore - New Music - More Music Videos

Beautiful Song with a STRONG Message. Send It On.

2009-08-13T20:56:00.004+08:00

Send It On by Demi Lovato, Jonas Brothers, Miley Cyrus and Selena Gomez.

Here's a short vid about the stars talking about the song. Enjoy.

XOXO
J

Paramore Ignorance video to premier THIS Thursday 13 Aug!

2009-08-11T20:35:00.002+08:00

Just saw the a teaser of the vid. Kind of hardcore in my standard and am loving it! Super stoke about it. Going to sleep now it's 8.36p.m but I can barely keep my eyes open. Love you all.

XOXO

CamHOROOR! ...yea that's me

2009-08-10T20:03:00.004+08:00

XOXO
J

G.I Joe

2009-08-08T23:13:00.003+08:00

Sum up my day today..woke up real early head to school. Did exam. Went to Time Square watch G.I Joe with sis while we smuggled in Starbucks. Had lunch at around 4pm with sis. Met up with Ryan had drinks at O-Town. Went to cc and played Dragonica.
G.I Joe all I can say is the cast were awesome. The CGI was a lil' too much certain scenes were real fake but the action was AWESOME! And I LOVE IT!

Next Sat!! MTV WORLD STAGE!!

XOXO
J

In Loving Memory Of Gary Leon Roberts

2009-08-03T20:28:00.002+08:00

First they said he went missing, then they said he was found after 24hours since he had gone missing. And then they said he passed a way. He was so special, I will miss his smile the most and the way he made everyone feel when they were around him. How could anyone hate such a sweet guy like him? Who would do something like this to him? It just doesn't add up! His passing on is such a great lost! He was and still is even though his not with us anymore was such a great impact to us, he was a role model to so many. My heart goes out to his family. We miss you dearly Gary Roberts. Words aren't even enough nor does it do any justice to how special you are.

XOXO
J

It's that easy?!

2009-07-28T19:36:00.003+08:00

Well MTV World Stage is finally coming to Malaysia! And hell yea I wanna go! But i could enter the competition due to the fact i'm underage; to stand a chance to win V.I.P tics to the concert to party with the stars and possibly even rub shoulders...aiihz. And when I heard FlyFM was giving out tics of course I tried to win them. I was pretty much listening all day till my phone so conveniently nearly died on me! And when I got home I listen till it was almost midnight and when it was finally the cue to sms even before they finish announcing I spammed! And while they we're playing Neyo's "Mad" I got a call. And they said if I wanted it I had to scream. And I won.
And I had facial today. Apparently my face is more sensitive then I thought and the facial lady demanded that I write a letter informing that I cannot pair up with anyone during facial practice so I'll have to bring my own model. My face has holes and it's swallon and it hurts. Thank you Clara International products for the pain. The beautician told me if I keep using their products which are obviously too strong for my skin to handle. I'll have an ugly face and permanent scars.

XOXO
J

insanelyJENN says

it was March 3rd and now it's May 28th

MONDAY

i'm bad with titles

its more frustrating than ever because there is nothing i can do about it GAAAAAH!

valentines is just a few days away

Domokun Franzie! (we were stalking midvalley the gardens and megamall)

just random things coming out all over my head

Reality is a bitch! Off with her head!

Avril Lavigne - What The Hell Official Video

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his Class on the problem Science has with God. He asked one of his new Christian students to stand.

P!nk - Fucking Perfect

meet my boyfriend

B.O.Y

dying is easy; living is hard.

when it all comes down to it, i am a lil unstable

It's been awhile

inking it on feels that much more personal!

now now why the silence?

BE WARNED!

blah blah blaaah!

here's something to make up for the lack of updates

i promise you this! i hope...

Officially a year!

Happy 25th Birthday Bryan Donahue

What really happen to MARTIN JOHNSON

Boys Like Girls frontman Martin Johnson gets beaten up!

Friday 29th 2010

So I miss a day

Soon....REAL soon!

#boyslikegirls top 2 on trending topic on Twitter!

Countdown to NOKIA LAUNCH PARTY featuring BOYS LIKE GIRLS

Remember Me movie trailer

The Runaways Trailer&Movie Clipt

tweeted by @benjaminmadden (Benji Madden from Good Charlotte)

I'm going to see BOYSLIKEGIRLS! AGAIN!!!

Tired tired TIRED!

So yeah it's been awhile..

I WAS FROZEN TODAY! (via Christine Lim)

Brice Dallas Howard talks Eclipse&David Slade

Martin Johnson now has a girlfriend?

Heavy Metal Dog!

Ashley Greene (Alice Cullen from TWILIGHT) Skinsuits” Sports Illustrated 2010 Swimsuit Issue!

More news on the Allah protest

Churches are being burned down because of the word 'Allah'!

Check Out the People's Choice Awards Winners! (by PopSugarUK)

Greatful & Looking Forward to...

A message to EVERYONE..

Are you ready for some jaw dropping, eye popping, drool tastic experience?

In Loving Memory Of Brittany Murphy

Curse the connection!

Behind The Scene Footage Of BOYS LIKE GIRLS - TWO IS BETTER THAN ONE (MTV.com)

Wake Up Call

All mags and articles featuring BOYS LIKE GIRLS; just for the fans

Group shot with The All American Rejects

AAR during meet and greet in Pavilion

What a month of OCTOBER!!

been awhile but i did promise pictures right?

Stick around for...

Photos of Boys Like Girls during Hennessy Artistry press con. and concert

Press Con. & Invites to Hsiao Hung Jen, Paul Freeman, Lenka and Boys Like Girls mini concert.

10 Reasons People Cut Themselves By CrimsonAndRedx73

Cutting is a Disorder

2. A Cry For Help

3. For Attention

5. A symbol of love

6. Cutting relieves stress

7. They like how it looks

8. They feel like they deserve it

10. Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID)

it'll pass...

3 more days to go...

it always starts with a few spams of "hi.."

the ugly truth

you wanna help him? stop bringing her up!

I'm not crazy!!

it's all about time

kanye think before you speak

i am now checking out Vampire Diaries

tooooday- o wait. yesterday.