Reality is a bitch! Off with her head!

how can i be completely honest in a blog that's public? but i'll try cause i just need to let it out and prob is i can't even tell it to my bestfriends or the one person that means the world to me now. thing is things aren't that simple. it feels kinda worst than the classic William Shakespears 'Romeo and Juliet'. OK i never read the book but i've seen enough of the movie..well, i was given the book- well photo-stated. but well there is family involve then there is the law. yeah...and then there is people that know this will end tragically and i should get out before i am in too deep, well i already am. and i never saw it coming. everyone says there's a solution to everything; maybe there is maybe there isn't...but what i do right now that it's too soon to tell. God knows what will happen in a matter of months, weeks, days or even hours- and if i'm lucky years. thing is i'll never know, you'll never know. but it's hard, and it's not going to get any easier; but i'm holding on.