Maybe I'm jealous that she likes someone that likes her back;
Maybe I'm just worried that she'll get her heart broken again.
Or maybe it's just strange for me to see how quickly she moves on and I wish I could be like her.
Maybe I am just a plain jealous bitch.
Sometimes I actually wonder why does she even bother to put up with me.
She knows me so damn well...
She knows what I'm capable of and how irresponsible I can be,
and how I am so emotional that majority of my actions are always based on emotions instead of my freaking brain.
Maybe it's cause it's the time of month and my hormones are pretty much haywire.
I hate it when this happens!
At least I haven't burst out crying over nothing yet.
I really miss her...but she ain't around, well I think she hasn't left yet. I ain't sure.
And I don't wanna sms her...she deserves to have fun and not have her eyes and fingers glue to the phone.
Not like anyone on the face of the planet replies an sms as fast as I do- well most of the time.
Sometimes I just don't bother.
Maybe I'm just thinking too much about things that shouldn't even be bothered about.
How long has it been since I was last in a relationship?
Don't know. Don't bother.
I don't want to be in a relationship with just ANYONE.
I'm sick of those awkward feelings I get from the guys I've previously dated.
I want to feel...comfortable.
This is me bullshitting again.
XOXO
J
